Sov's Crazy Ramblings

Well much may be a little TOO much. Theres a fair bit to say at least though

Firstly, Megan is away on holiday for a week. I hope she has really good fun and i’m sorry I couldn’t be there myself as was originally the plan. Staying here though I have lots I can do and i’m doing all sorts of things to help out!

Speaking of things, I’m back into WoW now, while playing EVE on the side, WoW gets boring after a few hours of playing doing very little so i swap over to EVE again for a break. Its a good balance at the moment and I hope I can keep that going.

My internet has recently been even worse than usual! Therefore I decided, stupidly, that I would contact the phone company and see what was wrong, i told them the problem and spanish stupidity kicked in.  The only replies I’ve had so far are “call us and pay us to fix it” and a blank FWD: message containing my reply to them (no new content). Failure, but nothing unexpected.

On another topic I thought about making some vlogs or something on YouTube, I saw how crap most of the content is on there and then noticed it has tons of views so I figured if its that bad and they are popular, think if I could make something less crap than this! I’d be in the top10 in a few days. So we might see me trying to make something on there at some point soon in the future. Perhaps…

I think thats about all I was planning to put in this, not a very interesting or long blog but its just whats happening, I’ll probably write something really outrageous next time to get some search attention… like “Obama found eating dirt! Regression to childhood stages described as “normal” “

Its been a good long while since I updated and much has happened and changed.

Firstly. Mike, a good friend of mine has just had a baby girl!

Well onto the nitty gritty. After my guild’s split from Invictus Sanctum we have had a rough time. Firstly I got burned out on WoW and went back to EVE for a bit, its an even better game than when I left it and i’m now actively playing it again. As for WoW however, the lightbringers has been left well enough alone. Lucithana and Mirodi have bought in their alts and real life friends, and I have recruited new blood. Few of them have showed interest in the guild after joining and I wonder if anyone really cares. I’ve become disheartened and I told them they could go  back to sanctum if they wish… I’m not sure its a good idea, considering sanctum, but its a stable guild, even though there are aspects of it that appear hellish.

As for the future of the lightbringers, I am still not certain, I have stopped inviting new members while I think it over in my head, though my inital thoughts are to drop it entirely. WoW has become a mindless monotony, sure its fun occasionally, but the continual repetition day in day out is enough to drive a man insane.

In other news. Summer has come and it is now boiling here every night, no matter how much clothing I remove I still pour sweat and stick to my desk as I type. The fan is going the window is open and still the heat soars, I would say it could not be hotter but I know that is untrue.

The heat is causing me to be irritable, short on temper, tense, and I have a distinct lack of concentration, I can’t focus on anything without being drawn to the terribly feeling on my arms of being stuck to a desk by my own filth.

I’ve also recently helped my mother with her website and her first e-book has been published. It is a beginners guide to painting with watercolor. If you have any interest at all here is a link.

I will make a promise now to keep this blog up to date, I know i’ve promised this before but I see that it is a good thing now, I feel I am losing my grip on sanity, maybe this will be of use to a scientist years from now.

Also my father grows steadily more tired, though it hardly seems possible, eating has become a major hardship  for him and he struggles to take in even the most basic of nutrients, he suffers in silence but I can see his pain. I wished that my father could say “Son, i’m proud of what you’ve acheived” but I fear this may never happen, no matter how hard I try or what I do, I can never achieve anything that I desire or strive for. I’m sorry dad.

I don’t know where to go now from here so I think I will close for now. Just know that if i’ve treated you poorly recently… then I’m sorry, I never mean any harm, and I always want what is best for everyone else, even though my actions seem to cause nothing my trouble and strife.

p.s. Megan is away at the moment, on a 2 week vacation to see relatives, I wish her the best of luck and fun. I hope you have a great time. I’m sorry I could not be there as I hoped to be for your camping trip, it weighs heavily on my mind and I regret every moment I procrastinated and said “I’ll go”.  I hope that one day we will indeed meet, I hope that truly, it would bring meaning back to my life.