Sov's Crazy Ramblings

Its been a good long while since I updated and much has happened and changed.

Firstly. Mike, a good friend of mine has just had a baby girl!

Well onto the nitty gritty. After my guild’s split from Invictus Sanctum we have had a rough time. Firstly I got burned out on WoW and went back to EVE for a bit, its an even better game than when I left it and i’m now actively playing it again. As for WoW however, the lightbringers has been left well enough alone. Lucithana and Mirodi have bought in their alts and real life friends, and I have recruited new blood. Few of them have showed interest in the guild after joining and I wonder if anyone really cares. I’ve become disheartened and I told them they could go  back to sanctum if they wish… I’m not sure its a good idea, considering sanctum, but its a stable guild, even though there are aspects of it that appear hellish.

As for the future of the lightbringers, I am still not certain, I have stopped inviting new members while I think it over in my head, though my inital thoughts are to drop it entirely. WoW has become a mindless monotony, sure its fun occasionally, but the continual repetition day in day out is enough to drive a man insane.

In other news. Summer has come and it is now boiling here every night, no matter how much clothing I remove I still pour sweat and stick to my desk as I type. The fan is going the window is open and still the heat soars, I would say it could not be hotter but I know that is untrue.

The heat is causing me to be irritable, short on temper, tense, and I have a distinct lack of concentration, I can’t focus on anything without being drawn to the terribly feeling on my arms of being stuck to a desk by my own filth.

I’ve also recently helped my mother with her website and her first e-book has been published. It is a beginners guide to painting with watercolor. If you have any interest at all here is a link.

I will make a promise now to keep this blog up to date, I know i’ve promised this before but I see that it is a good thing now, I feel I am losing my grip on sanity, maybe this will be of use to a scientist years from now.

Also my father grows steadily more tired, though it hardly seems possible, eating has become a major hardship  for him and he struggles to take in even the most basic of nutrients, he suffers in silence but I can see his pain. I wished that my father could say “Son, i’m proud of what you’ve acheived” but I fear this may never happen, no matter how hard I try or what I do, I can never achieve anything that I desire or strive for. I’m sorry dad.

I don’t know where to go now from here so I think I will close for now. Just know that if i’ve treated you poorly recently… then I’m sorry, I never mean any harm, and I always want what is best for everyone else, even though my actions seem to cause nothing my trouble and strife.

p.s. Megan is away at the moment, on a 2 week vacation to see relatives, I wish her the best of luck and fun. I hope you have a great time. I’m sorry I could not be there as I hoped to be for your camping trip, it weighs heavily on my mind and I regret every moment I procrastinated and said “I’ll go”.  I hope that one day we will indeed meet, I hope that truly, it would bring meaning back to my life.

1. Kelate says:

   July 6, 2009 at 1:35 pm

   aww you need a hug…. *MASSIVE-SNUGGLE-HUGS*

   I was only away for just under a week…and it’ll be just over a week towards the end of the month again…so you’ll just have to put up with me in between now and actually we were not gonna get home till sometime this afternoon but decided to drive though and get home last night.

   umm I’ll write more latter, as I mentioned in an e-mail to you I has terrible ear infection and I am in tons of epic pain right now and and I’m kinda sleep deprived so my thinking is not very cognitive… :S