Sov's Crazy Ramblings

Its been a good long while since I updated and much has happened and changed.

Firstly. Mike, a good friend of mine has just had a baby girl!

Well onto the nitty gritty. After my guild’s split from Invictus Sanctum we have had a rough time. Firstly I got burned out on WoW and went back to EVE for a bit, its an even better game than when I left it and i’m now actively playing it again. As for WoW however, the lightbringers has been left well enough alone. Lucithana and Mirodi have bought in their alts and real life friends, and I have recruited new blood. Few of them have showed interest in the guild after joining and I wonder if anyone really cares. I’ve become disheartened and I told them they could go  back to sanctum if they wish… I’m not sure its a good idea, considering sanctum, but its a stable guild, even though there are aspects of it that appear hellish.

As for the future of the lightbringers, I am still not certain, I have stopped inviting new members while I think it over in my head, though my inital thoughts are to drop it entirely. WoW has become a mindless monotony, sure its fun occasionally, but the continual repetition day in day out is enough to drive a man insane.

In other news. Summer has come and it is now boiling here every night, no matter how much clothing I remove I still pour sweat and stick to my desk as I type. The fan is going the window is open and still the heat soars, I would say it could not be hotter but I know that is untrue.

The heat is causing me to be irritable, short on temper, tense, and I have a distinct lack of concentration, I can’t focus on anything without being drawn to the terribly feeling on my arms of being stuck to a desk by my own filth.

I’ve also recently helped my mother with her website and her first e-book has been published. It is a beginners guide to painting with watercolor. If you have any interest at all here is a link.

I will make a promise now to keep this blog up to date, I know i’ve promised this before but I see that it is a good thing now, I feel I am losing my grip on sanity, maybe this will be of use to a scientist years from now.

Also my father grows steadily more tired, though it hardly seems possible, eating has become a major hardship  for him and he struggles to take in even the most basic of nutrients, he suffers in silence but I can see his pain. I wished that my father could say “Son, i’m proud of what you’ve acheived” but I fear this may never happen, no matter how hard I try or what I do, I can never achieve anything that I desire or strive for. I’m sorry dad.

I don’t know where to go now from here so I think I will close for now. Just know that if i’ve treated you poorly recently… then I’m sorry, I never mean any harm, and I always want what is best for everyone else, even though my actions seem to cause nothing my trouble and strife.

p.s. Megan is away at the moment, on a 2 week vacation to see relatives, I wish her the best of luck and fun. I hope you have a great time. I’m sorry I could not be there as I hoped to be for your camping trip, it weighs heavily on my mind and I regret every moment I procrastinated and said “I’ll go”.  I hope that one day we will indeed meet, I hope that truly, it would bring meaning back to my life.

Well I havn’t posted for a while and I feel you deserve some reasons why. I forgot. Is that a good reason? No it isn’t but I will gloss that over with some cool stuff that has happened recently.

I am currently talking on MSN with a really good old friend of mine that I havn’t talked to in ages. His name is Lanta, Hotlanta, he lives in Atlanta, bet you didn’t guess that eh? Well I havn’t seen him in ages and it’s been good to catch up, sadly he’s got computer problems and a job and a girl and he can’t come on that much but it was great to see him again.

You may have wondered what the “bad” is in the title, thats actually just a hint to my next friend. The spammers, yup, they found me here in my own site, I thought I was safe and sound, but no they fucking found me, “Please moderate these comments”. Glad I got that thing moderated..

Anyway another thing, I got my carrier today, a few new things in WoW and the EVE Markets crashed due to a massive exploit that existed for 4 years being fixed. It caused a massive jump in prices of everything, Ice products (my business) have hit an all time low with prices plummeting over the last few days. Sickening stuff really.

In other news I am hot! No, you didn’t think I was THAT self centered did you? No, I’m boiling, its roasting in here, so i’m gonna go cool off and get to bed. Take care guys and girls!

Edit: I know I have had those reviews pending for ages, I will do those tomorrow! Or try to at least.

Well for 2 reasons, 3 reasons I am writing this.

Firstly, because Kelate is back and its good to have her.

Secondly, she said not to talk about her in my blogs, she is just awesome how can I not? Seriously…

And Thirdly, my idea of rejoining planeshift was smashed today and yesterday by the refusal of my next generation PC to bow down and be slowly digested by Planeshift’s poor technical design and engine flaws. I have also decided not to go ahead with the idea of restarting the planeshift guild for a number of reasons: I can’t get the game to stay on for more than 10 minutes without it Bluescreening on me, I don’t have enough time to play the 2 MMOs and that thing called “Lief” all in one lifetime, sadly. Thats it actually, I will however try and help out with the planeshift project some more, my servers will stay up and I will keep trying to get another server accepted, Though that seems doubtful

Anyway, It is late again and I should be in bed, sadly my clock is all scrwed up and I am really not that tired, my hand hurts from playing mercenaries 2, carpal tunnel… me thinks.